The reason i was spur on to write the blog again was mainly due to happening on the 19 and also 22 feb. I was having a soccer game at SAFTI with CSC students, i can't reject cos nick was the one who helped me get into the course and i can't reject if not people would look at me differently..
So i went for the game after my ex on 19.. not sure i will survive.. haha.. i enjoyed the game a lot cos i kept on running and running.. eventually we lost 2-0.
Then when i went to check my phone , my PP called... so happy then i quickly changed up and rush to meet my PP as i would be spending my entire weekend with her... simple weekend but damn happy!!!
Later did i realised, why she called altough she knew i was playing soccer.. He called again, this time he pulled the trump cards.. he mentioned to her,he love her and wanted to have kids....
i was upset when PP wanted to talk to me i was not there for her... haiz... so silly of me.. i should have checked my phone at half time..
that moment i really felt damn frustrated and sian.. why still pester my dearie.. why can't he leave her alone.. at the same time i was also worried how my dearie would reacts to all these.... there is always a sense of insecurity when u start to love someone too much.. at the same time i would not want to be any form of stress to her.. Thruout, she has been very nice to me, always taking care of my feelings,, something which i never had felt before from my wife....
In fact, i was worried cos my dearie always say she got a soft spot if she got pester too often.. I recalled what she told me about the past... when she was pester and she went back to him again despite she wanted to end the relationship with her..
i know i should leave things as it is and maybe dun bother??? But last time i am always like that, thinking for others.... this time i really dun want to lose my dearie i need to "fight" for my own happiness.. my regrets is that we can't have our baby.... if the timing is ok i will be v happy even if he is a niu....
sometime i wish god will enlighten his " Hubby" ask him to forget and move on.. i really hope all will goes well.. Sometime it really frustrating when i can't do anything just to wait till the marriage is dissolve.... that will be in end mar..
then today 22 feb, he msg again... havinng a exchanges of msg and even she talked to him.. seems like the discussion is still square 1... think he should let her go.... somehow everytime i hug my dearie i always felt so secure and nice.. i wanted to marry her but i know the road still long... so i say i will wait for the day to come!!
So i went for the game after my ex on 19.. not sure i will survive.. haha.. i enjoyed the game a lot cos i kept on running and running.. eventually we lost 2-0.
Then when i went to check my phone , my PP called... so happy then i quickly changed up and rush to meet my PP as i would be spending my entire weekend with her... simple weekend but damn happy!!!
Later did i realised, why she called altough she knew i was playing soccer.. He called again, this time he pulled the trump cards.. he mentioned to her,he love her and wanted to have kids....
i was upset when PP wanted to talk to me i was not there for her... haiz... so silly of me.. i should have checked my phone at half time..
that moment i really felt damn frustrated and sian.. why still pester my dearie.. why can't he leave her alone.. at the same time i was also worried how my dearie would reacts to all these.... there is always a sense of insecurity when u start to love someone too much.. at the same time i would not want to be any form of stress to her.. Thruout, she has been very nice to me, always taking care of my feelings,, something which i never had felt before from my wife....
In fact, i was worried cos my dearie always say she got a soft spot if she got pester too often.. I recalled what she told me about the past... when she was pester and she went back to him again despite she wanted to end the relationship with her..
i know i should leave things as it is and maybe dun bother??? But last time i am always like that, thinking for others.... this time i really dun want to lose my dearie i need to "fight" for my own happiness.. my regrets is that we can't have our baby.... if the timing is ok i will be v happy even if he is a niu....
sometime i wish god will enlighten his " Hubby" ask him to forget and move on.. i really hope all will goes well.. Sometime it really frustrating when i can't do anything just to wait till the marriage is dissolve.... that will be in end mar..
then today 22 feb, he msg again... havinng a exchanges of msg and even she talked to him.. seems like the discussion is still square 1... think he should let her go.... somehow everytime i hug my dearie i always felt so secure and nice.. i wanted to marry her but i know the road still long... so i say i will wait for the day to come!!
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