Choices versus Happiness?

I decided to pen this down cause somewhat i felt that certain issues in life could be rather comical and ironic. I began to wonder what Tan CG spoke to us about choice which i have written down. In my life especially i realise that it is full of choices that sometime i made which ended i would classified as not favorable to my position.

But choices are made so that your wants and needs are satisfied, i am always caught up in financial commitments that sometimes i think it is rather absurd. My dearie asked me about my financial status and how come i work for so long that i do not have any savings. I guess my end state at this moment is rather a mixture of family commitments and personally ignorance when i was young.

In fact, this year i made another choice, ultimately is to be happy for both of us, i decided to get married! yeah! although i was given a choice, rather being simple dinner and nothing else. I have decided to devote into the realms of financial struggle cause i believe that  if we had a simple dinner , our beginning of the journey would not be meaningful and that there will be nothing to look back and this will have repercussion when we are husband and wife.

But i know the journey would be not easy in my perspective, maintain my savings for the marriage and at the same time committing to the daily expense would not be easy.  Furthermore i have an installment plan with pris ont he loan that i get from her.  Sometime i am very sad, i really blame myself for not being very prudent in my youngers days. I am desperately trying to fixed the issue and i believe since i made the choice for being happy, i will make it towards OUR WEDDING. I am at the same time really glad that pris is happy with the arrangements that she and i have decided. I think i believe my choice was correct, looking at her creating blog about wedding and getting excited over the growns and suchs.

At the same time i have been prudent in spending, i decided to put aside 1k per month since jun this year and by next yr jun  i would have enough $$ to run the expenses of the wedding and Dec 2010 bonus and the performance bonus and Jul bonus would be used for the wedding.
During this week, my dearie told me that her good frd Yvonne asked her whether the wedding is paid fully by me, i began to share my view, i believe in marriage is both parties involved. I would not mind paying and i never talk to pris about the payment but i think if she would want to she would contribute if she wants to i guess. i must say i am really appreciative when she decided to loan me the $$ to pay for standard charter.